[Being here, not there]
My record player is spinning too quickly. It is rushing through the songs, thus messing up the key, pitch, tempo, yadda yadda yadda.
In a similar fashion, my life spins a little too quickly.
“Monica, you’re in pretty good health… you’ll probably last a good 50 or 60 years longer. You don’t have to fit all of the interesting things you think to do in one semester. Just be faithful to what you’re doing right now” – lunch time friend.
BOUNDARIES! We all need them, yet we don’t always know how to create them. Life goal: make boundaries and be faithful to them, so I can take care of myself. The world won’t end when I can’t attend a meeting or water someone’s flowers.
“This school would still function without you and Marcia here. - lunch time friend.
Some people put too much pressure on themselves. I am one of those people. Relax!
To relax I desire/need/am trying to be present with friends. People I love, know, and care about. The love of my life is in what sometimes feels like a galaxy far, far away. But he’s there. And I’m here for him, always. Then there are those who live right under my nose that I love and cherish who I fully love to be around and care about.
Be there. Just sit, listen, love. The big dude gave me the means to love and figure out how to love. His love, obviously much much bigger-stronger-better than mine, gives me the means to spread my heart and soul out to those who love me and who I love.
Gosh, just be present already.
I agree. It is hard to make boundaries. I think sometimes the reason why I try to do too much is because I worry that certain experiences will only happen once and so I have to fit them all in now, while I still can. But there is an irony in that which you articulated really well. When I try to have too many experiences, I can’t be fully present in any of them. Too bad. Maybe if we could only be super human, all of our troubles would be over.
September 17, 2009 at 9:10 pm
P.S. I also like the analogy of the record player…and the fact that you HAVE a record player to make that analogy.
September 17, 2009 at 9:10 pm
I understand the struggle with the balance. I think that will be a challenge throughout this year, but we are all here to remind each other to be present. Also, your writing is fantastic. I’m so excited you actually started posting things! wahoo!
September 20, 2009 at 4:06 am